on the face fault line

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 04:44:37 GMT

i made a new livejournal because i am dumb and tired octopijess and some of the people on here. i don't know who reads this. if you do, add bloodynosed.

dear summer,

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 21:50:58 GMT

i don't mind that you have left me alone with so many dead leaves nested and balanced on top of my head. it isn't your fault, really. i asked you to go away so many times, i didn't think you would listen, but hey, we all have to leave at some time. i guess i will see you next year. next year i will be a next year older and i will be ready for you. we were together all the time. do you remember that? i can hardly, it was so many next years ago. i wrote you, but you never wrote back. i guess it got pushed under a lemonade stand or marked with sidewalk chalk before you had a chance to read it. my tan is fading just like you are.

yeah yeah yeah.
i went to final fantasy last night. it was probably one of the top 3 shows i have been to. plus, cherie, your dancing is the greatest thing in life.

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 21:10:21 GMT

seenk to thee beet. eat your heart out mrs. huxtable. college is college is college is college is college. my roommate wakes up early i wake up early. i eat very little drink very little say very little just draw.

oh good. the people i live with are suggesting that we leave our door open AT ALL TIMES. who are these people? i don't know what's going on.

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 23:53:36 GMT

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i don't have any friends, so i sit in the library for three hours at a time and draw.
write me letters:
oak hall rm215L
9201 university city blvd
charlotte,nc 28223

visible planets

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 05:22:26 GMT

the entire earth is balanced on my eyelids right now. i can feel it! they are proposing to make 12 planets part of the solar system since they let pluto be a planet even though its orbit is irregular and it is so small. and there were never any guidelines to what actually makes a planet, but now they say it has to be large enough to have it's own gravitational pull among other things. guess what one of the planets's names is. XENA. after the warrior princess. i am super stoked on more planets, just not ones named after muscular mythical tv babes. they should name it teena.

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 18:19:23 GMT

and more

i cut my hair

sorry to everyone i didn't hang out with this summer. it's hard to when you aren't allowed to leave your house. ever. plus, i am not good at it. i am moving back to campus on thursday, i am not excited.

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 16:39:38 GMT

so i guess i deleted myspace.

indian in the cupboard was on today. it's my second favorite movie after royal tenenbaums.

alone time overdose

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 05:20:02 GMT

shuffle has been giving me songs that make me really sad. you know the kind of sad where you don't need to cry, you need to throw-up and curl your fingers till you can feel your heartbeat in your fingertips. i had a dream about bruce willis last night. we shared some laughs and a cup of coffee and i tore a page out of my sketchbook and jammed it into his diary when he wasn't looking.

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 22:13:15 GMT

i had more nightmares last night that i don't remember and this morning work called and i talked into the phone and it wasn't turned on. an eight hour shift on uscan is really not needed. i drew 30 pictures on receipt paper i tore out of the receipt printer. some creepy black man with blood shot eyes hit me on the shoulder with a balloon and said my name and i had no idea who he was. and than he asked me if i was ok and i said nothing. his creepiness outweighed my rudeness. it was shock, anyway. four people asked how do you get your hair to do that and i said hairspray not i haven't washed it since saturday, which is the actual truth. i am babysitting a mansion this weekend and working every single day this week. because i'm broke and i would like to be not broke so i can support my h.a.b.i.t.s. (namely, eating strawberry shortcake 24/7). i haven't had a phone call since last wednesday. god i am so popular it is really difficult to handle.

good thing i haven't been awkward my entire life

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 03:35:53 GMT

just kidding. i have.

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 21:21:13 GMT

he had a face like a freight train and legs of steel no one could stop him he was made of little mouse.
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my face and neck hurts and i finally got medicine for my mouth ulcers. cool, it only took 11 years. i have to get surgery to get my not grown in wisdom teeth taken out and i am going to keep them and make a necklace.

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 01:15:21 GMT

everything is out of order, i don't want to fix it...

the outer banks and sedg and sedg's family was fun. me and sedg almost died several times. once in the rip tide where we had to be rescued, once with an encounter with a black widow, another time in the death woods near the lighthouse, and today a large fish(shark) swam up between my legs and on my arm and i screamed and ran out of the ocean. life is so deathtastic and i am ready to go home now.

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 15:50:07 GMT

the beach has been exceptionally fun. me and sedg almost died in rip tide and had to be rescued by surfers. they are going to make a movie about it. then we saw a black widow spider on a tiny grave and we went into some woods by the cape hateras killer. i have alot of pictures that i won't post until whenever i feel like it, which probably means sometime after sunday, because i go home on sunday. i got my housing for next year; i'm living in oak. i don't know who my roommates are because the letter came while i was here in the outer banks. blah blah blah. life is nice and i am tan.

pee ess: don't tell mom i almost died. seriously, don't.

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 05:51:39 GMT

i took off all of the art and pictures off of my wall today and put everything in a box except for the following things: a polaroid of sedg in the rat's nest dressing room, a picture of jason and me at prom, a polaroid of jesus and han salo graffiti, a postcard from jeffrey and a postcard from brandon, and a devendra screen print poster. you know, the important things. everything was haunting me and killing me in my sleep. whatever.
eric supil came by my house today and we exchanged mix cds, which made my day really exciting, because for an hour i got to guess what song would be next. and then he visited me at work, which was even more exciting because no one ever comes to see me. some guy said yo at me to get my attention and that was rude and i got angry for .4 seconds. apparantly i don't get mad, i just put my hands on my hips alot. i swear i have emotions, i really really do. i had a good conversation with a firefighter about the texture of shark meat. this post is so boring. the point is, i made a deviant art thing and this song is so good.

also, i downloaded mozilla firefox for no reason.

EDIT: I LOVE YOU ALI

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 16:09:36 GMT

and the award for most awkward phone conversation goes to......me. congratulations. here are some dumb things i drew

there are about a dozen more, but i don't feel like posting them. they all look pretty much the same anyway.

you are like fucking air in my lungs i hate work i hate money break your bones leave me alone.

and a song.

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 22:25:17 GMT

also, i am a mother i am a

real mother

saint jessica of orlando, patron saint of children and polaroids

or not

kids

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now. (hey best, haven't seen you in weeks. sedg on saturday, hey.)	✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (no attention span. only hogan.)	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. (even fake ones)	× I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana. (never)
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (i don't date)	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes. (why the hell wouldn't i?)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (less uptight, still uptight)	✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (scissors)

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× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (hahaha)	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times. (all the time)	✓ I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (get rid of my dark circles, ok)	✓ I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi. (if i wasn't vegetarian)	× I talk really, really fast. (i don't talk)	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair. (it's going to be)	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling. (FOUR)
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look. (sometimes)	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	✓ I am usually pessimistic. (look on the dark side of things)
✓ I have a lot of mood swings. (why are you in a mood?)	✓ I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent.	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex. (boob night)	× I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. (i don't own either)
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop. (broke)	✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (i like it, ok?)	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone. (that i never use)	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (never)	✓ I've rejected someone before. (sorry boy i liked last summer, i don't want to go to a show with you.)
× I currently like/love someone.	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (sit)	× I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything. (citric acid)
✓ I have a lot to learn.	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex. (everyone)	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	× I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	✓ I enjoy some country music. (don't come home a-drinkin with lovin on your mind)
✓ I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. (situations)	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (i wasn't allowed to celebrate it)	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	✓ I am punk rockish. ("you're like a punk rock audrey hepburn."-DOM)	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger. (they go for me too. hello, middle age.)
✓ I study for tests most of the time.	✓ I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
✓ I love my job(s). (apron)	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	✓ I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. (i don't know how to use makeup properly)	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	✓ I am adopted. (halfly)
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	✓ I can pick up things with my toes. (i can open a door)	✓ I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in.	✓ I talk in my sleep.
✓ I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century. (wrong wrong wrong)	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	✓ I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. (do you have a proximity issue? no i have a YOU issue.)	× I am a caffeine junkie.
✓ I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. (i am one with nature)	✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. (see shelf collection figure a.11)
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	× I'm an artist. (who really is an artist)	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	✓ I am extremely flexible.	✓ I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal. (you are perfectly normal to be having these feelings)	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits. (sure)	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. (anxiety)	✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help. (hello dawn)	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal. (cryptozoology)
× I can't stand being alone. (always alone)	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
✓ I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. (i wish everyone would)	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language. (some french some spanish)	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it. (lame)	✓ I like most animals better than most people. (teena, you are the only one that understands me)
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	✓ I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to. (consumer)
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	✓ I obsessively wash my hands. (where's jessica? oh she's in the bathroom. i was just washing my hands.)
✓ I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others. (what)
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed. (all the time)	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	× I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years. (i yelled teen angst one time. i forget why.)
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	× I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	✓ I've performed in three plays. (orphan #3, milkmaid, dwarf, pushcart pusher, chorus)
✓ I enjoy burritos.	✓ I'm Irish and loving it. (irish, french, german, native american)	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'. (what)	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
✓ I need more time to myself. (always alone)	× I wish I was more open-minded.	✓ I hope that I go really prematurely grey. (i told mom i wanted to dye it white)
✓ I download songs from the internet. (limewire)	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	× I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare. (i really hate it)	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long. (why did i do it?)
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	✓ I can only hate someone that I love. (yes, i guess)	✓ I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks. (morning order in 12th grade: um, could i have a vanilla latte with an extra shot of espresso?)

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 18:43:04 GMT

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHOMGHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
also, here are some things that are making me pretty happy
teena is getting huge and scary

my necklace came today

this kid

saint rose of lima

this turtle

jennifer drew me this

my shoes come soon

and a piano made of cats

somehow i ended up with $60 in my checking account when i thought i had 0, so i bought meatless pepperoni. saturday can't come soon enough.

i really want headgear

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 03:53:01 GMT

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 19:55:22 GMT

i have a tall boy of diet peach tea balanced on my chest and held up with my nose and i am looking around it, but mostly i can't see the screen right now. i hope there aren't too many typos. work was bad today and people are creepy and a guy looked back at me at least 6 times when he was leaving. and someone threw my lunch away and i got really upset and sat in a bathroom stall for awhile and told myself that crying about my thrown away lunch would be probably the dumbest thing in life to do, so i didn't. i plan on never crying ever again, and i have been really good at it for about a month. apathy rules and i made a killer lemonade stand sign too.

i just rediscovered this picture and thought i would share

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 05:16:17 GMT

my brother

for being my model for drawings to come.

HAHAHAHAA

here have a song.

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 04:07:59 GMT

I JUST BOUGHT THIS

AND LOOK WHAT SOMEONE DREW FOR ME

and i have 5 versions of the song "boys of summer."
here's my favorite, don henley's version.

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 19:35:24 GMT

so mom asked me when i'm going to start dating. NEVER. hahahahahahahahaa. i will never date. no one can tame me. fear of commitment, and lack of phone skills and experience have nothing to do with it. plus i have several giant mosquito bites and that's just unappealing. these are my only friends, posing with me for a picture.

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 04:39:08 GMT

it's not fourth of july

watching the hand of death

3-D

watchin

haha

polaroids
skeeZe

sedg and jeffrey

sedg

brandon and katie battle

shannon

firework

the brave little sedg

ill mush

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 20:23:18 GMT

john 3:17 says, jesus only loves you if you are nice. here are some creepy drawings i did

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 19:08:51 GMT

i am wearing religious charms strung on thread and yarn to ward off

but it's not working because my lip is swollen full of death and insomnia is a disease, right. all of my hair grew back two nights ago and loretta lynn and elliott smith are good for today. yes? say yes.